Have you ever been so afraid of something in your life, like dying?
I mean, everybody’s afraid of something…one way or the other
But lately, I’m so afraid of dying….truth is told!
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And guess what? It started this year, 2018
Having been closely following two individuals that passed on… I didn’t know them both well enough but I can guarantee you that they were both legends, in their rights
These two legends of mine and I studied the same course at the university, literally and so, we were familiar with each other.
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One was my neighbor, back home… the other was much more popular, a musician
And I must admit this, before I continue spilling…. I love them both very dearly
So yeah….here we are!
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So, here’s it all begun
One day, I see this post online about a brawl at a pub somewhere, in the end, that rendered one lifeless and on life-support
I was optimistic, that this particular friend of mine would you know….beat it all and come back rejuvenated.
Alas…. I guess it’s true what they say that God mocks those who make plans….
He didn’t return to me, as expected.
That’s when it all came pouring down on me
How precious and priceless life is….. Rather not can be!
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I guess it’s the way this friend of mine went out….. That shook my veins out
I took life for granted and how much we need it….the living and breathing, that is
And assumed that aaaahhhh….he will be back soon
That we can do anything we want, while we are still alive and it will go away, just like that like; it never happened
Nowadays, I live otherwise….each and every step is taken with the utmost caution
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A few days passed by and I asked around, in my colleagues at work about what I was experiencing and they told me that I was experiencing what they called death anxiety!
Can you imagine that? I had never heard of it, to be honest
I read about it and all the signs and symptoms checked out…on the list and theory….
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A month later, I lost the other friend of mine, from school….
I was so heartbroken by the news
Basically, I didn’t feel my bowls that night and the next morning
It’s like it was a bad dream
Gosh, I don’t even want to remember the horrific scenes!
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Dead and Gone…that hit song from T.I made the utmost sense to me, from that time onwards
Everything that I do, has to be done with utmost caution and honesty, from then on
For every life that I come in contact with, I ought to touch it with all my love and care
Because there won’t be a time to do that, when we are gone, don’t you agree?
We all miss those who pass on terribly. They’ve become part of our ‘lives’ and we fear the feeling of that empty place at the table, in our homes……When they leave, whether early or late in life, it’s because what they came here to do is done. But you will see them again, first in your memories and your dreams……….and then when you go to join them wherever it is that they have gone. And it will be such a celebration of Love. Be patient til then and enjoy your memories and remember the Love.
Oooohhhhhh….thank you! You’re so kind. ?
I’m so sorry to hear about your losses, life is so precious. A very close friend of mine died very suddenly four years ago, in some ways it was harder than when I lost a parent. Keep the memories of your friends alive, talk about them, talk to them (I do this sometimes, know it might sound mad), remember the good times, but above all be kind to yourself. Eventually, your loss becomes part of you, but it is a process that you cant fast forward. Take care
Oooohhhhh….thank you, Suzanne. I’ll be taking on your advice. ??
Death is always hard to eal with, but my Great Grandmother told me something that has always stuck with me, “Find the beauty in everything, because someday you won’t be here to appreciate it.”
Hhhhhhhmmmmmm….I think I can do that! Thank you. ??
Regardless of the person, or time, or circumstances, death is a subject that still scares us. The closer the person is to us, the harder it is to deal with. But the best we can do is to live life to the fullest while appreciating every moment with our loved ones.
Aaaaahhhhhh….alright, Santana! Thank you for sharing. ?
I’m not afraid of dying .I’m only afraid of only existed in this life and not living it at all.
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Life truly is precious and we shouldn’t waste it on frivolous things or being negative. Death is definitely a scary thing!
Kileen
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Death anxiety is so much more common than people realize. We often don’t talk about it because it takes a traumatic event or loss in our lives for us to realize our mortality.
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I am so sorry for the loss of your friends and for the toll it has taken on you. I wish you peace and comfort as you must live your life.
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I am so sorry for your loss. It is tough when we see people close to us dying as it always seems it happens to someone else. But we are all heading in the direction, we are all in this together, life is precious.
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I think it’s normal to experience fear when you’re about to die, idk. But to me, I’m not afraid of dying. I’m actually afraid from the thought that I don’t met the required condition of being good for you to come in heaven.
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I am so sorry for your loss! I know that it is hard losing someone close to you, but don’t let that scare you away from living your life to the fullest. I sincerely hope you will be able to conquer this fear! Wishing you all the best, dear!
Hhhaaaaa…it will be fine, Mariska! Thank you.
The loss of loved ones and friends really take a toll on our well-being and the anxiety you developed is one of the effects of it. I’m so sorry to hear you went through this and I hope you are able to take some time to process it.
Oh yes, Lucy. I have! It has not been easy, though.
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I am so sorry for the loss of your friends. Death can be known to cause a lot of anxiety for some people. Wishing you peace through your losses
It shall be alright. Thank you!
There will always be fear of death. Gather strength with your family and friends. You are not alone.
You are so sweet. Thank you.
😭😭 thank you!
I’m sorry for your losses and missing someone can be quite hard. There is always going to be fear of death itself but maybe that is the reason why we want to make our life meaningful since death is inevitable anyways.
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Sorry to hear about your loss. You are right life is fragile and we just have to make the most of it for sure x
😭😭 thank you! XO